Unmet Expectations

I confess that in my past, I had equated God’s love with protection from the evils of the world; yet, I intellectually understood suffering was a part of life that God allowed for His purposes. Only after deep self-examination did the Holy Spirit begin to give me understanding about the true nature of God’s love—I was, in fact, deeply loved. The Lord always protected me; He would never allow me to be destroyed or caused to fall (please read 2 Corinthians 4: 7-9); nevertheless, I needed to reach a place where I believed in Jesus’ love for me in my heart…without doubting or diminishing that love.

God’s Word was vital to my comprehending and receiving the love of God.

I began with the foundational truth about God’s perfect love for me: “God demonstrates His own love for us in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us” (Romans 5: 8)...I understood that this fact should be enough. God chose to give me everything, when I had earned and merited nothing good from Him! Nevertheless, I confess, there was persistent disappointment buried deep in my soul concerning my unmet expectations: My ideal life was not happening—that is, my notion of happiness and success, or at least, the absence of challenging and painful experiences that could not be quickly resolved.

…but this was only the first step in my quest to discover and receive the immeasurable love God had for me.

(to be continued)